The Misfit Shaman
Philosophical autobiography of a man who never grew up.
Friday, January 13, 2012
Saturday, December 24, 2011
Saturday, December 17, 2011
My Idea of A Solution Oriented Approach
This is what I think is the most important step in becoming who I really am, and that is a free man, living for the time being in a bag of flesh, experiencing this vast and awesome tribulation we call humanity.
That's all for now, please consider:
Notice:
Greetings and tidings of good health and well-being, to the public trustee at hand,
I, Martyn Daniel Grant will to make known to the public record that a necessary distinction exists between he, aforementioned Martyn Daniel Grant, and the person with a similar name (in capital letters merely for distinction purposes), MARTYN DANIEL GRANT. Whereas it is understood that the latter is an issuance of security interests and the former is my living body, mind, and soul, no comparison could rightly be entertained.
I, Martyn Daniel Grant will to make known to the public record that it is my full intent to stand in equity with full liability under common law jurisdiction. Whereas it is understood that the right to act in commerce is a God-given right in adherence with common law, sworn to be upheld by Her Majesty Queen Elizabeth of the House of Windsor, and therefore a matter entirely dependent upon consent.
I, Martyn Daniel Grant, will to make known to the public record that the terms of any and all contracts concerning my business are dealt with in an even-handed manner subject to full disclosure, mutual consideration, and agreement of terms. Whereas it is understood that failure to meet even one of these specific criterion renders any and all contracts null and void.
I, Martyn Daniel Grant, will to make known to the public record that I fully intend to engage in commerce under the same name given to me by my parents, and not by the title issued by the REGISTRAR GENERAL and DEPUTY of the government of ONTARIO, CERTIFICATE NUMBER 83-452502-01, with REGISTRATION NUMBER 83-05-048278, ISSUED AT TORONTO, ONTARIO, CANADA on AUG. 04, 1983, via DATE OF REGISTRATION on Jun. 27, 1983 at the BIRTHPLACE of LONDON, in the name of GRANT, MARTYN DANIEL with a sex of M, under the title of CERTIFIED EXTRACT FROM BIRTH REGISTRATION, a document called FORM 27 VITAL STATISTICS ACT 11128.
I, Martyn Daniel Grant, will to make known to the public record that I have the capacity to act under the title MARTYN DANIEL GRANT and summarily choose not to employ such a vehicle in my commercial engagements. Whereas it is understood that all statutory measures are subject to this and only this particular title, I welcome open dialogue to hear the resolution of any claims against said title.
I, Martyn Daniel Grant, will to make known to the public record that this sentiment is hereby recorded for any future consideration. Whereas it is understood that failure to respond is equivalent to agreement of parties, I give the receiver of this document a full ten business days to respond with a counter claim to any of the intentions I have made clear and answers to the following questions:
Is there any issue that your office wills to attend in consideration of the previous statements?
Is there anything I cannot lawfully perform besides cause harm or loss?
If the answer is in the negative and no response is received, my will is known to the public by agreement of parties and all further matters can be directed by this knowledge, evidenced by this document.
If restrained or detained by anyone for reasons to address these issues, let it be known that I, Martyn Daniel Grant, charge a fee of no less than one thousand dollars CAD for my time, patience, and good will, to whichever individuals care to contract my services via this document.
Thank you for your time,
In peace,
(Signature)
All Rights Reserved, With Prejudice.
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
The Global Agenda
This topic, insufferable as it is, requires particular mediation: much information about 'what is going on' is readily available for mass consumption, given, for the first time at a level of general interpretation. Many competing perspectives are available from anywhere in the world, by obvious measures like the networking capacity of the internet. What one is to make of these revelatory phenomena are of one's own individual make of things.
Movements that would tend to corral these inclinations, expressed as the Zeitgeist, truth, or freeman, perspectives, consist of limited expressions of the overall motivation. People, at least some of them, are of the mind to stand up for themselves on levels that they're not supposed to be aware of in the slightest. Or are they? As it stands is that although these perspectives offer much food for thought to the creatively imaginative individual, many involved find themselves mired in one of the other, unable to bring about a functional alternative within the paradigms at hand.
Unfortunately, many involved in the so-called truth movement have taken the essentially neutral information provided by slanted ideological perspectives as valid truth in and of itself, there remains much further informational integration of all the ideas at hand. Nor do I pretend to offer such a complete project in and of itself, only can I present my interpretation of the overall mulitplex of ideas at hand. Again, the general trend in these movements has been to take the information at hand hook line and sinker with the slanted perspective from which it originates. By this token, I infer that information is better considered a quotient to be ascertained from everything in question, from the facts presented to the origins and demarcations of ideas presented as facts, as well as the general temperament and disposition of the manner in which the ideas are presented. Everything is always in question.
From these questions, however, I have gathered as the most functional belief system to entertain in matters of global agendas, that there are indeed nefarious agents in operation that would see to many different impositions of influence and control by many different means. As to an entirely functional perspective that would elucidate the entirety of this agenda, I can by no means pretend to entertain such a feat. As for specific agendas and functionalities that operate within the confines of specifically ascertainable conspiratorial evidence, be they derived from symbolism, scientific method, mystical or otherwise directly real experiences, seem the more plausible hypotheses in contrast to their opposite, that everything is as it should be, with the structure of world political systems easily discernible from an everyday consumption of generally available media products. Fuck that noise.
Too often have ideas, and experiences thereof, been obscured by the convenient interpretation at hand instead of being pursued to their functional limits. This liminal rendering of everyday experience is a functional expression of the dominant cultural ideologies of any given day. On a more personal level, these limitations are either taken on or transcended by the organism wishing to pursue the dominant programming mechanisms or approaching the development of life on its own terms, with imagination of possibilities. In examination of the multifarious capacities that might rightly be called me, I've found that an honest assessment of the reality construct afforded to any entity that happens to be birthed into this modern world, reveals that sinister forces are at work to proscribe specific behaviours that play out in occult rituals and the unfoldment of obscure belief systems. Among these forces are the more obvious figureheads intended to attract the attention of anyone interested in the phenomena, be they the skull & bones, bohemian club, vatican, or royal family, of notable influence indeed. But if anyone interested wishes to proclaim that any single aspect or allegiance is the true motivating factor in any and/or all manifestations of the global agenda as so-called new-world-order, Zionism, the new atlantis, etc., I propose that they are probably wrong from the get go, as more is probably at work than they are aware.
Restricting oneself to entirely 'conspiratorial' realms when seeking information is as limited as only looking to the mainstream media for evidence to inspire answers to the questions of life. Truth is to be found only in the living experience of life, to my mind, informed but not limited by the data at hand.
It is the creative imagination that offers novel development in the idea structures, beliefs, in operation at any given moment. To be taken as honestly as possible, grounded in an emotionally stable interpretation of reality, the connections to be made between the development of western civilization through the deployment of specific ideological patterns, show mainly a tendency towards faith in the conventions of current social paradigms. The question of culture seldom arises in populations that are specially moderated within a comfortable social dichotomy. Same with those entirely embedded within a specifically limited paradigm, whether that be the reality offered by MTV or the 'Truth' movement.
This by no means speaks to the nefariousness or ubiquity of the global agenda in question. It most certainly find expressions in the most heinous of atrocities, from the holocaust to the AIDS epidemic, by my assessment. To link the two directly might take several leaps of the imagination, but the underlying attitude in operation, is to my best analysis, a very similar approach. Devise a scheme to terrorize and murder segments of the population in order to enforce false authority upon frightened masses. Instruct a workable social organism that will follow top-down supervision in the execution of inhumane directives. Maintain a psychological bifurcation in all human organisms between whatever they might truly be and the programmed social realities that offer comfort by complacency and obedience. Construct a plausible deniability that affords those of mediocre intent a haven for their dissent, another group of consumers who need nothing other than constant info-wars and intergalactic reports. Strictly one approach or another will not reveal the only potential interstice in the unfoldment of the global agenda. This break, I propose, is that those complacent in the perpetuation of the nwo, namely you and I, arrest our compliance with it. By taking an honest inner journey, I propose, anyone and everyone will find much more to their lives than previously considered from an attitude of socially deterministic measures.
tbc...
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
The Inner Journey
Who are we, where do we come from, and what does it mean to be here?
By no means a specific field of study, I'm using the terms inner journey in reference to an individuated human organism's direct and honest experience of immediate sensory reality. This includes the signification that the individual imparts to the experience at hand. The working thesis involved here is that a gross majority of people have decided not to take the inner journey by their own accord and wit, and have rather whole-heartedly accepted a prefabricated worldview in substitution for their unique creative interpretation of reality that is our inherent natural right. I take this to mean that we are each able, if not existentially required, to make the inner journey of our own determination, defining the parameters of our own fundamentally unique experiential matrix.
We barely remember who or what came before this precious moment,
We are choosing to be here right now. Hold on, stay inside
This holy reality, this holy experience.
Choosing to be here in
This body. This body holding me. Be my reminder here that I am not alone in
This body, this body holding me, feeling eternal
All this pain is an illusion.
- Tool, Parabola
We live in a horrifyingly beautiful manifold world, full of different kinds of experiences, no two exactly alike. We communicate things in different ways to attempt an adequate approximation of what that experience feels like to anyone who will listen.
To accept anything (information, perspectives, world-views) willy-nilly, without scrupulous comparison to one's directly perceived experience of life, leads us to constant states of bewilderment, unaware of our connection to the general living matrix of which each of us are an essential piece. As a chosen form of operating in reality, Jean-Paul Sartre called this manner bad faith: a will-full acceptance of known falsehood in order to 'save face,' or 'go with the flow,' as it were. Much of this falsehood, however, is tacitly imposed through constructs of language and ingrained societal limitations of emotional imagination. It is my wish, here, to communicate my perspective on what I take to be an essentially human conundrum, with solutions readily available for all; and although i can't take anyone else's inner journey for them, I may be able to offer suggestions that help people along their own paths, as so many artists, authors, scholars, and scientists have helped me on mine.
This is all I wish to accomplish by communication. Having no special access to truth, all I offer is my honest and creative interpretation of what the unfoldment of my reality means to me. When applicable, I'll provide external context and reference to substantiate actual claims; otherwise, everything presented is my take on life and that alone. Neither am I, or should you, be committed to anything other than this: my (your) honest and creative interpretation of what the unfoldment of my reality means to me (you). That is the only imperative statement I wish to make.
Science, religion, history, politics, media, etc., are taken here as information to be processed, and not perspectives to inform the unfoldment of my reality. Information is necessarily neutral, even the perspectives by which information is generally delivered, be they slanted as much as they are. Offered as belief systems to be held as venerated dogma, information as reality construct is imposed as regular reality to any and all who wish to accept as such. Only when people wholly accept one particular way of interpreting information does the inner journey become occluded. As the sagely Terrence McKenna once put it, “when you believe in one thing it automatically procludes you from believing its' opposite.”
This bad faith, not engaging the inner journey, is most typically manifest in an attitude of being satisfied with the belief systems offered by status quo reality. That is, one feels there's no fault with the fundamentally malicious and unsustainable global reality construct that we are all constantly creating and perpetuating. The inner journey can best be characterized by an internal comparison of one's own emotional life in relation to the unfolding global situation we find ourselves in. Examining how and one feels certain ways towards this idea or that, we may come to realize that the experience of reality is primarily an emotional relation. As the emotions are the functional nexus of soma and psyche, honestly regarding one's bodily sensations and idea structures, social life as an emotional milieu becomes more lucidly interpretable.
“Truth means full contact with oneself as well as well as with the environment. Truth means knowing one's own ways as distinct from the ways of others.” - Wilhelm Reich
Analysis of one's use of language might also be a revealing study, insofar as each have their own unique vocal apparatus, life experience, and general temperament, but for the most part operate within a strictly refined political correctness that I prefer to call living with mutilated language. As no moment is identical to another, we find ourselves in novel situations all the time but are using the same old worn out metaphors to describe them.
Over thinking, over analyzing separates the body from the mind.
Withering my intuition, missing opportunities and I must
Feed my will to feel my moment drawing way outside the lines.
Black then white are all I see in my infancy.
red and yellow then came to be, reaching out to me.
lets me see there is so much more
and beckons me to look through to these infinite possibilities.
As below, so above and beyond, I imagine
drawn outside the lines of reason.
Push the envelope. Watch it bend.
Over thinking, over analyzing separates the body from the mind.
Withering my intuition leaving all these opportunities behind.
Feed my will to feel this moment urging me to cross the line.
Reaching out to embrace the random.
Reaching out to embrace whatever may come.
I embrace my desire to
feel the rhythm, to feel connected
enough to step aside and weep like a widow
to feel inspired, to fathom the power,
to witness the beauty, to bathe in the fountain,
to swing on the spiral
of our divinity and still be a human.
With my feet upon the ground I lose myself
between the sounds and open wide to suck it in,
I feel it move across my skin.
I'm reaching up and reaching out,
I'm reaching for the random or what ever will bewilder me.
And following our will and wind we may just go where no one's been.
We'll ride the spiral to the end and may just go where no one's been.
Spiral out. Keep going, going...
Tool, Lateralus
Some choose to live comfortably within the proscribed 'reality tunnels,' a la Robert Anton Wilson, while other neophilic types will seek, incessantly, new ways of looking at the world. The language people use to describe their experience, I think, relate directly to the emotional constitution of their temperament, and often times telling of where people are at in their inner journey. And by no means do I wish to imply that anyone has even the capacity to, let alone ability, to comprehend the totality of another human experience; just that some are much more easily read by their language when their words can be accurately correlated with the categorized ideological perspectives that are expressed through their ideas.
In contrast, people who have taken the inner journey for themselves have a varied and creative use of language beyond the simple interpretation of television language, to be derisive. I propose, then, that the inner journey is only approachable having an absolute commitment to avoiding absolutist beliefs, a commitment to living according to life, pulsating with infinite evolutionary potentials. Insofar as beliefs are an operatively functional transactional language to accomplish intended tasks, as in, 'I believe if I do x, y will occur,' they are wholly important and necessary aspect of human reality; however, if beliefs are whole-heartedly accepted as world-view, people's abilities to use them as mechanisms to accomplish specific tasks becomes occluded by those ideological filtration devices. Those beliefs are then used as clubs for clobbering everyone around the believer. Beliefs work towards achieving our 'desired' goals or prevent us from realizing our true goals.
“All truth as a way of living requires an opportunity to express itself freely. It will then grow by its own devices.” - Wilhelm Reich
I am, after many years of intense self-reflection, very confident in asserting that I have at least begun my inner journey. This project will never finish, save for the expiration of my biological vessel. I only say biological as a matter of linguistic convenience, as that study can in no way provide an adequate representation of the human condition, even though it's an essential perspective as physics, chemistry, sociology, and phrenology. All of these linguistic constructs are useful belief systems to advance the understanding of life but cannot be reduced to a homogeneous governing principle. I propose that the best solution to the (post-?) modern conundrum is that everyone begin an inner journey, well expressed by Wilhelm Reich in the following passage from The Murder of Christ:
"There is only one common rule valid in finding the special truth valid for you. That is to learn to listen patiently into yourself, to give yourself a chance to find your own way which is yours and nobody else's way. This leads not into chaos and wild anarchism but ultimately into the realm where the common truth for all is rooted. The ways of approach are manifold and none alike. The source from where the sap of truth is streaming is common to all living beings, far beyond the animal man. This must be so because mall truth is a function of living Life and living Life is basically the same in everything that moves by way of pulsation. Therefore, the basic truth in all teachings of mankind are alike and amount to only one common thing: To find your way to thing you feel when love dearly, or when you create, or when you build your home, or when you give birth to your children or when you look at the stars at night."
I try my best to develop my use language so that I can more adequately express my feelings about the world, by learning new perspectives, doing the research to evidence that way of thinking, and not being afraid to speak my mind, albeit in a more cautious and reserved matter in sensitive circumstances. A sincerely directed effort has been made in regards to answering the questions of 'who we are', 'where we come from', and 'what it means to be here,' and I wish to engage that dialogue. On the other hand, I feel like a seriously concerted effort toward preventing everyone from doing exactly that, the inner journey, is at play in the social reality of 'western' so-called civilization. Language is the general mechanism to relate emotions to social life, bodily sensations to idea structures, and ought be encouraged to develop accordingly, uniquely. The emphasis is heavily in the opposite direction, methinks, as pathological behaviour of so many perversions is considered the norm in 'civilized' society. Through directed social engineering, we've been pigeon-holed into a suicidal death pact with each other so long as we want to consider ourselves special unique snowflakes that deserve the adulation and fame awarded by money and 15 minutes on the television.
Unfortunately, this has spread to almost every part of the world as a ubiquitous ambition, and is far from changing any time soon. Even though there is a strong alternative community in certain regards, I can only wish for more of every community of people to find their own way and notice that it is not the citizenship of the world's political system that matters at all. It is in fact what is holding us all back. Instead, each one's own way if honestly assessed, I believe, would all be complimentary with one another. And that is my functional belief system which I operate towards exactly that end.
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
A Public Secret Society
The definition of a society states that it is a group of people who have consensually organized themselves to define their common reality. A tradition that has been passed on since before history, in my estimation, is for a smaller society to occlude particular aspects of reality from the larger societal context. This is what is called a secret society, and whether it is hiding something real and tangible like secrets of the universe or hiding its intentions and operations, its nature is essentially occult by definition. There are many of these societies remaining today, and it is from their wealth of traditions that I seek to gather any fruitful practices that can help me in my adventure.
The advent of all forms of control by an elite group over the masses is precedented by conspiracy. Organizing the wider society along specific parameters dictated by a narrowly self-involved society, the secret one, is the modus operandi of human civilization. Although it is not my belief that the controllers really have control, more like influence, the means of influencing the masses to benefit the elites has been fairly standard for many generations. This is achieved, methinks, by installing a de facto authority that answers to a higher authority, that of the 'controllers.' My proposition is to turn this process on its head.
I wish to establish a public secret society: a group of individuals that have organized a consensus reality that is a higher authority than any other, subject to one golden rule alone, and open to any and all who consent.
It may seem strange to request an individual's consent as a condition for membership in a society; however, if the current cultural milieu has not explicitly stated the requirements and implications of 'citizenship,' as it were, have we as 'persons' actually consented to the society of which we're allegedly a part? I say that this tacit assumption is necessary for the continuation of civilization as it is known today. If everyone was aware that their society was in fact dictated by another society that considers itself separate and superior to the unwashed masses of humanity, there might be a problem...
Let's consider a quote by Nietzsche that might lend some credulity to the assertions I'm proposing: "There is no such thing as fact, only interpretation." Even though I used the word fact in the previous paragraph only goes to illustrate the point that if and when enough people agree upon particular interpretations of certain phenomena they become fact. This agreed upon reality is the consensus world I can envision and is not the current state of affairs in the world today, as far as I've experienced.
Instead, there has been concerted effort by a class of societies operating with an invisible hand that plays a large part in the directing of civilization; and it is this secret orientation from which I wish to take back our usurped human power. If we were to create our own society as independent as possible from any consideration by the statist structures governed by the aforementioned hand, and there is enough support to assert that independence non-violently when confronted by false authorities, then a real society might emerge from the miasma of civilization. Ghandi, when asked what he thought of western civilization, answered "I think it would be a good idea." I say we live up to Ghandi's words.
By using the tactics previously and currently employed by the handlers of the current so-called authorities, how can these methods be called into question? By elucidating the M.O. of the secret societies as they've operated up until now, we would be able to show how their tactics have created authorities and hierarchies at all. The creation of artificial persons being perhaps the most ingrained and insidious, in my opinion, would necessarily be the first to go. By creating a corporate golem and convincing everyone to beleive that the monster bearing the mark of the beast is actually them, the shadow societies have effectively secured their influence over the hearts and minds of all 'persons' on the planet. If we can overstand and overcome this entirely fictitious limitation, as is my intention, then we'd be able to invent and construct our own authority, only public this time...
I think there are many aspects to the idea I'm developing here, and I certainly haven't thought of them all let alone made note of it, but still, there's a kernel of something ready to grow. An idea I'd mentioned in the previous post on evolving ideas is a sort of Universal Declaration of Intent. This might be able to serve as the documentation of people's desired interaction with authority structures.
Another aspect of how open this society needs to be could be achieved in manners of degrees. Just as freemasonry as degrees of membership, so too could the public secret society. For instance, the first degree could be to recognize that the corporations posing as governments so as to legitimize violence are no longer an appropriate coordination for a social contract, but also, that the individual at this level is not yet ready to divest from the system, but ready and able enough to stand up to support a consented to model of social organization. The second degree might entail the active separation from dominator culture by researching, learning, and living into what it means to be a peaceful inhabitant: using one's own wit and elbow grease to make a habitable and hospitable place in the world for oneself, one's kin, and the wider human community. The third degree could then be the post of diplomat who seeks individuals in need of support when 'the man' comes down on them, as no one is free until all our brothers and sisters are freed of their chains, or so some dirty commie put it :).
Well that's the start of the idea.
I would really appreciate any feedback that might be applicable to this idea. I realize it's short and perhaps somewhat trite, but I've been working on a bigger writing project for a few months. Of course every piece of my writing is part and parcel with everything else, I just really wanted to get this idea out there in whatever capacity I can before the wider project comes to fruition.
Thanks anyone everyone who reads this!
Peace,
M